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Two Voices in the Pitch Black.
BY JULIE LARIOS
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How many nights in a walled room have words scraped their way across the floorboards, through the glass, towards you? You've probably lost count. Who knows? Who wants to know?
The don't-want-to-knows still hear those bumps in the night, and the want-to's spend their time counting each window of the room, each corner of each pane of glass: one, two, three, four, the old-fashioned way,
all the time thinking there's no other way to ignore the noises—you know because you're there. You see the glass leak, hear it all pour in, leaving the night even darker, filling the room with little vocabularies taking a head count
and tabulating their chances. When it counts most, words come through, going way beyond what's required, leaving no room for defeat. Somehow they know I'm awake this late at night. And what is that, now, coming through the glass?
It smells like wood alcohol, it's plastered and glassy: C'est Delire. It's what remains to be counted once reason slinks away into the night's doghouse. It's Nonsense, which has its way with sad animals and knows how to terrorize innocents in a walled room. Then give me a room without walls, without floors, without glass, without words crawling. You know that's a bad prayer, it won't count for anything in God's scheme, the way some prayers do, like Here's-my-soul-for-the-night.
Still, imagine no room. Nothing to count, glass would become sand, the way time does, though I know it's too late tonight.
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