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The Liftings
and the Fallings.

BY JONAH WINTER

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 Grandmother, how I long once more in the gloaming
 to hear your voice. Voicelessly, it speaks
 in whispered sighs, the wind: statelessness. 
 With each daguerreotype I touch, a shroud
 of darkness falls. I recall the breast pump
 you gave me, how we gazed at the wainscoting

 together, listening, how the wainscoting
 echoed, a halcyon of sound, how the gloaming
 enveloped the liftings and the fallings of the breast pump, 
 its capacious stillness immeasurable now. It speaks
 to me in a voice I cannot hear, through a shroud
 of silhouettes, bracken, statelessness. 

 Revenant, appear! Your statelessness
 malingers in the chiffonier, the wainscoting's
 absence, in the veil of dreams, the shroud
 of sleep, the sidewalk of meaning, in the gloaming
 of hunger, the chifforobe of chance ... One speaks
 of incandescence, of what is needed, of breast pumps, 

 of fields which are no longer. Your breast pump
 murmuring cantilevered statelessness
 quells each ceaseless passerby, speaks
 the language of grief, recombinant—such wainscoting
 was not easy, such corridors—in the gloaming
 of our hearts, as once they were, this shroud

 forever flowering. Osterlind, our shroud, 
 undreams the unknowable. Breast pumps, 
 two fluttering ghosts, dreamless, undo the gloaming
 in the leaves of dawn. Such statelessness
 was not easy. With tenderness, the wainscoting
 sings a song that you used to sing, speaks

 with your voice, Grandmother. Persephone speaks
 through you, in a tremolo: loud shroud. 
 Wrong song, for now, my heart demures ... The wainscoting
 fades. The day is ended. Lost are the breast pumps
 of sunlight. All is gone. All is statelessness, 
 ruin. I sit alone, in the after-gloaming ... 

 And yet, in this post-gloaming, something speaks
 to me of statelessness, then lifts the shroud
 from my eyes: your breast pumps hang from the wainscoting

 

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